When Time Stopped Before the Third Cancer – Why I Put Down My Pen (2019–2025)

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Prologue – As If Time Stood Still For weeks, I couldn’t bring myself to write. It wasn’t because I lost interest, and it wasn’t for lack of ideas. My heart and mind were simply too heavy. Everything froze when we heard the news of my mother’s third cancer. I had always wanted to keep sharing pieces of our daily life here, but this time, writing took a back seat to simply enduring. So today, I want to share gently why I had to stop writing — and what this unexpected season has meant for our family. 1. A Small Sore on the Tongue – The First Cancer In 2019, my mom mentioned a small sore on her tongue. We all thought it would heal in a few days, but strangely, it didn’t. Even after medication and ointment from the ENT clinic, nothing changed. The doctor suggested a biopsy at a larger hospital. I will never forget my mother’s face when the results came back. The word “cancer” shattered her. She walked out of the hospital room in silence, tears streaming down her cheeks. Thankfully,...

Jacob Who Stole Esau’s Blessing – Rebekah’s Scheme and His Brother’s Fury [Genesis 27]

Isaac had found peace in Gerar after disputes over wells. But as time passed and he grew old, a new trial came to his household. This story reveals how human attempts to fulfill God’s will can bring both consequences and pain. Jacob, Isaac’s younger son, ends up deceiving his father and taking the blessing meant for Esau. It’s a deeply human story of faith, fear, schemes, and wounds.

Stolen Blessing, Lasting Wounds – Jacob, Rebekah, and a Broken Family

Jacob pretends to be Esau to receive the blessing from Isaac – 야곱이 염소털을 두르고 아버지 이삭에게 형 에서인 척하며 축복을 받는 장면 (창세기 27장)

1. Preparing for the Final Blessing

After the season of conflict ended, time quietly passed in Isaac’s house. His eyes had dimmed and his strength had faded. Now he called his eldest son, Esau, for one last blessing. But something unexpected was about to happen. Rebekah, who had believed God’s promise, tried to make it happen her way. Her choice would leave deep scars—on her family and on herself.

Isaac said, “Behold now, I am old, I know not the day of my death. Now therefore take, I pray thee, thy weapons, thy quiver and thy bow, and go out to the field, and take me some venison... that I may eat; that my soul may bless thee before I die.” [27:2–4]

2. Rebekah’s Plan and Jacob’s Hesitation

Rebekah overheard Isaac’s words and quickly called Jacob. “Your father is about to bless Esau. Go and prepare a meal so you can go to him in Esau’s place and receive the blessing.” Jacob hesitated. “My brother Esau is a hairy man, and I am a smooth man. What if my father touches me? I would appear to be deceiving him and bring a curse instead of a blessing.” [27:11–12] But Rebekah insisted. “Upon me be thy curse, my son: only obey my voice.” [27:13]

3. A Deceptive Blessing and a Brother’s Cry

Jacob wrapped his hands with goatskin and wore Esau’s clothes. When Isaac asked, “Who are you?” Jacob replied, “I am Esau, your firstborn.” [27:18–19] Still unsure, Isaac eventually gave the blessing: “God give thee of the dew of heaven, and the fatness of the earth, and plenty of corn and wine... Cursed be every one that curseth thee, and blessed be he that blesseth thee.” [27:28–29]

Soon after, Esau returned and realized what had happened. In anguish, he cried out: “Bless me, even me also, O my father.” [27:34] “Hast thou not reserved a blessing for me?” [27:36]

Isaac trembled and said, “Thy brother came with subtilty, and hath taken away thy blessing.” [27:35] Esau wept and cried, “Is not he rightly named Jacob? For he hath supplanted me these two times: he took away my birthright, and now he hath taken away my blessing.” [27:36]

He remembered that day when he gave up his birthright for a bowl of stew. [Genesis 25:29–34] Now it was too late. His careless choice had led to irreversible loss. Consumed by rage, Esau vowed: “The days of mourning for my father are at hand; then will I slay my brother Jacob.” [27:41]

4. Jacob’s Flight

Rebekah heard Esau’s threat and quickly called Jacob. “Arise, flee to my brother Laban in Haran. Stay there until your brother’s anger is turned away.” [27:43–44] What began in Isaac’s house ended with separation and sorrow. Jacob fled, and Rebekah never saw him again. The plan meant to fulfill God’s promise only tore the family apart.

5. God’s Will and Human Ways

Rebekah knew what God had said—that the older would serve the younger. But she tried to achieve that purpose by her own means. Jacob obeyed, but fear ruled his heart. His words shook. His answer was a lie. And his reward was exile and sorrow. Esau, left behind, was overwhelmed by grief and bitterness. There were no heroes here. Everyone was wounded—by deception, favoritism, and broken trust.

6. Faith, Not Schemes

God’s plans cannot be stopped by human lies, but human efforts still leave behind pain. If we truly trust God, we must trust Him not only for the goal—but for the way to reach it. God will fulfill His promise, but we must be careful not to push our own agenda. When we try to force God's hand, consequences follow. What we need is not manipulation—but faith.

Next: Jacob’s Ladder Dream – God’s Promise at Bethel [Genesis 28]